Scar Tissue

Scar Tissue is a video performance of a self-portrait porcelain clay bust being mutilated by my own hands. In the video, the bust looks blankly into the camera as my slip (liquid clay) covered hands begin to slowly distort the face. By the end of the video the face has entirely been torn off of the head, leaving an empty space where a portrait once existed.

Throughout the video there is a slight confusion of whether or not the hands are coming from the bust or from an external force. Is she doing this to herself or is someone doing this to her? The confusion created by this act is to reference the discomfort felt in psychological trauma, unable to find the distinction between someone harming you or you harming yourself. The video also references the more unsettling nature of trauma in which a person compulsively inflicts pain and damage to themselves as a result of past suffering.

Scar Tissue is an acknowledgement of the frustrating and exhausting cycle of mental injury.

Photography by Frankie Macaulay